When things lose their colour...

I would like to believe I am officially over it...I think I'm totally ready to move on (finally) and step forward and let go of all the things that are holding me back I feel oddly empowered maybe its turning of age I don't know officially I cannot blame my stupidity and irrational decisions on that endearing youthful lack of better judgment..by now I should just learn from my mistakes rather than continuously make the same ones and falling into the same idiotic pattern... yes I'm well aware how I'm vague I'm being no I don't particularly feel the need to share specifics all that matters is I am officially over it and from this moment fourth I am going to focus on myself...I don't really believe that sounds selfish I think its something that is well overdue I've put all my time and effort and thoughts on other things and people...which detract me from what it is that I need to do to follow and achieve my own personal and professional goals...

so in the wise words of someone I know...

out with the old in with the new...

Photo of the Day:

Day 163

pretty fly for a white guy...

It was my Birthday on the 4th and it went really well..it was heaps of fun I did only take a few photos that day but the fact that i look dreadful on them has prevented me from uploading them so instead I will leave you with the photos I uploaded on my cupcake blog earlier today:

From where I'm standing...

Quite a bit has happened over the last few days/week all of which I wont bore you with my the two main highlights of the the week were...

Firstly as previously mentioned in last blog it was my mother birthday ahu n I took her to circle...I noticed theyve repainted their walls to a bright blue colour...i had this awesome bagel burger/sandwich thing it was a lambburger with bree, a sweet tomatoe chutney and rocca leaves it was really really good!
then my father took us to this awesome, extremly expensive but awesome none the less seafood resteraunt called Mahimahi in the Wafi City the seafood was soo incrediblly delicious and fresh...





i joined a cake decorating class by Wilton...which is heaps fun... this is my first attempt at properally decorating an actual cake by myself... i thought it turned out well... its 4 layers of chocolate cake with 3 layers of chocolate icing inside and then a vanilla buttercream ontop....taste wise i definitly prefer my own buttercream...but the recipe we used was really really great to with work with and was the ideal consistancy but cuz they use crisco instead of butter which is the biggest bitch to wash up it gets everywhere!.... here are photos of me cake:







I was randomly doodling in my notebook and somehow subchonciously i ended up with this so i thought id dedicate photo of the day to my diplodocus's in Aus:

Photo of the Day
Day 148:

Monday, 25th May

So wow last few weeks definitly intense... i started my business its going well tomorow itll be a 2 weeks since the party and ive already done 4 orders since my party and it hasnt even been full week...so im well happy...

today is my mothers birthday so ill be taking her out with my brother for lunch n then my dad will take us all out for dinner...I bought her presents...which I had fun photographing theyre these vintage patterned storage tins for like sugar and tea an coffee n stuff...I thought they were pretty....

n itll be my birthday on the 4th and then my brothers on the 17th ill be started a course on 26th of may..so yeah things are starting to pick up a little ...but I still havnet managed to accomplish the one thing i should have done months ago...get a proper full time actual job... hopefully I will.. hopefully out of nowhere that inspiration and movtivation and that passion and love to design and be creative will come back ...which I havent even seen a glimer of since I moved here ...I hope it comes back I need it so I can finish my portfolio and start applying...

other than that I've had this incredibly unshakable feeling...which I dont think is wise to dicuss up here...but its strange and I really wish I wasnt feeling it and I certainly shouldnt be feeling it regarding the person I have it for....my mind seems to be dwelling and lingering on things/people it shouldnt be...its a little annoying...

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